This life is a complicated mess.
I still don't know what I'm doing
Or where I'm going.
How do I move on?
Where do I go from here?
When when when
Will this get better?
When will I feel better?
Why is this happening?
Why is he doing this to me?
FUCK!
This is me
Alone and lonely.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Monday, February 18, 2013
Blah
I still have this overwhelming grief
Inside my heart and soul
Probably going to lose my job soon too
I can't focus on anything but my pain
All my decisions are wrong
All of my choices are epic fails
I don't want to be here
Or anywhere
This life is not mine
Inside my heart and soul
Probably going to lose my job soon too
I can't focus on anything but my pain
All my decisions are wrong
All of my choices are epic fails
I don't want to be here
Or anywhere
This life is not mine
Sunday, February 17, 2013
I'm struggling today
Today has been a struggle for me.
The thought of losing my husband has been unbearable. The rejection and pain is enormous. I don't know how to move on when I don't want to move on. I just want him to love me like he promised. I keep praying for death to take me. I can't stand the pain. I just want it to all be over. But I can't do it on my own. So ill just sit here and drink these beers. Hide myself under this alcohol. Wait until I pass out. And hope I don't wake up.
The thought of losing my husband has been unbearable. The rejection and pain is enormous. I don't know how to move on when I don't want to move on. I just want him to love me like he promised. I keep praying for death to take me. I can't stand the pain. I just want it to all be over. But I can't do it on my own. So ill just sit here and drink these beers. Hide myself under this alcohol. Wait until I pass out. And hope I don't wake up.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Lonely
I'm so lonely.
I still cry everyday.
I pray every night that this is all just a dream.
I just want to be with you.
You seem to be moving on.
You seem to be doing ok.
But I'm not.
I'm definitely not.
I still cry everyday.
I pray every night that this is all just a dream.
I just want to be with you.
You seem to be moving on.
You seem to be doing ok.
But I'm not.
I'm definitely not.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Longing for my love
The best feeling in the world
Is being in your lover's arms
Safe and warm
Protected from the world
I miss that feeling
Every night and every day
That I'm not with you
Is being in your lover's arms
Safe and warm
Protected from the world
I miss that feeling
Every night and every day
That I'm not with you
Missing the love of my life...
The longer I'm away from you
The more I miss you
The sadder life becomes
I just want to be home with you
Safe in our bed
Curled up in your arms
Cuddling and cumfy
I love you so much
The more I miss you
The sadder life becomes
I just want to be home with you
Safe in our bed
Curled up in your arms
Cuddling and cumfy
I love you so much
Friday, February 08, 2013
A new normal
The day starts
Go through the motions
Of being a human in life
Get drunk
Pass out
Somehow I get from one point
To another
Never really knowing
How I got there
Go through the motions
Of being a human in life
Get drunk
Pass out
Somehow I get from one point
To another
Never really knowing
How I got there
Wednesday, February 06, 2013
So the numbness begins...
I feel empty.
Numb.
My only emotion is discontent.
It's no longer day by day
But hour by hour.
The day moves so slowly.
Numb.
My only emotion is discontent.
It's no longer day by day
But hour by hour.
The day moves so slowly.
Saturday, February 02, 2013
James David Bradley...
You are my world.
My everything.
I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you.
The thought of it is to unbearable.
Please don't give up on us.
I love you. I'm still IN love with you.
I'm forever yours. I belong to you...
Forever.
My everything.
I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you.
The thought of it is to unbearable.
Please don't give up on us.
I love you. I'm still IN love with you.
I'm forever yours. I belong to you...
Forever.
Friday, February 01, 2013
Derailed
I feel like my life is one giant train wreck.
Being played out in slow motion.
And I have no control over any of it.
Being played out in slow motion.
And I have no control over any of it.
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