tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55299772024-02-28T04:49:41.508-05:00Mendi's News and Views... Talking to myselfMendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.comBlogger77125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-51848776238579746812015-06-20T21:59:00.001-04:002015-06-20T22:00:32.779-04:00Beer Diary Tonight it's<a href="http://ken9369.wix.com/stlawrencebrewing#!year-round-beer/cj63" target="_blank"> St. Lawrence Brewing Co. 'S'S Skinny Dipper India Pale Ale.</a> I bought this beer in my home town of Governuer while on vacation. 7.9%Alcohol.<br />
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And pretty dam hoppy.<br />
Curtis tasted it first and said... "tastes like fresh paint", and that made me laugh.<br />
So i pour myself a glass...<br />
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Nice head ... And then I taste it...<br />
Wooooo... that is hoppy for sure!<br />
Talk about funky breath the morning! Whoa!<br />
With that being said, i still like it. It's a goodgood beer. Not at the top of my list or anything, but definitely drinkable.<br />
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I have two more St. Lawrence brews to review... see you next time.<br />
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<img src="http://www.mendi.net/images/mendi-signature.jpg" />Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-51462948889550601692015-06-17T17:53:00.001-04:002015-06-17T17:54:25.946-04:00Beer Diary,Well today I'm finishing off a six pack of <a href="http://duclaw.com/beer/dirty-little-freak/" target="_blank">DuClaw's Dirty Little Freak</a>. I bought it at a little gas station in North Carolina on my way home from vacation.<br />
This beer claims there is "No safe word" and I agree. It's a coconut chocolate brown ale with a kick.<br />
When you drink this it's like being slapped in the mouth with melted Mounds candy bars, over and over again. Tonce that dark chocolate flavor begins to fade it leaves a tiny little hint of forceful caramalized malt and hops behind in your mouth. Mmm. Dirty. <br />
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<img src="http://www.mendi.net/images/mendi-signature.jpg" />Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-61981478831113196292015-05-20T22:01:00.003-04:002015-05-20T22:02:58.185-04:00Beer Diary,Beer Diary,<br />
Today I'm enjoying a lovely beer. <a href="https://www.google.com/finance?cid=658185" target="_blank">Samuel Adams</a> Cherry Wheat.<br />
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A nice light and crisply refreshing ale with a delicious hint of ripe cherries.<br />
We bought the beer at the <a href="http://totalwine.com/" target="_blank">Total Wine</a> store in Viera for a pretty reasonable price.<br />
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<img src="http://www.mendi.net/images/mendi-signature.jpg" />Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-12640201536963804742015-05-16T19:27:00.001-04:002015-05-16T19:29:03.276-04:00Beer Diary,<p dir="ltr">I've decided to keep a little beer diary here on my trusty little Google blog. </p>
<p dir="ltr">I love beer. In the last couple of years I have been drinking different kinds of beers testing and treating. Yum. Beer.<br>
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Anyway... today I am testing out a beer that I bought at ABC from their growler program. I like this idea... keg beer... on tap... in a 32 oz. Reusable bottle. <br>
So.... today's beer is from <a href=" http://engine15.com/">Engine 15</a> called 15 Nut Sack imperial brown ale.<br>
This beer is pretty good. Its a nice dark beer, not too hoppy. I'm not much of a fan of the sharpness of IPAs. </p>
<p dir="ltr">This beer is thick, smooth and dark... sort of like Neil Degrass Tyson being rolled around in my mouth. <br>
Time for another glass... </p>
Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-14253214719998290032015-04-28T12:16:00.001-04:002015-04-28T12:16:22.026-04:00College <p dir="ltr">So... I'm just sitting here in class waiting for it to start. This is the last week of regular classes. Finals are next week. After that school is over for me for awhile. I'll have my A.A. but there isn't really a place around here for me to continue with my education. I'm not interested being a nurse, a computer IT person or a business major. Can't move closer to a school that has what I want because of children. But it's ok. Anyway... time for class... </p>
Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-6575321221558888642015-04-24T19:23:00.001-04:002015-04-24T19:23:53.948-04:00Two years can change your whole world<p dir="ltr">Well. Here I am. Still alive. <br>
Two years ago, I was coming out of a 13 year marriage and embarking on a new life,a new relationship.  <br>
Curtis and I are still together. Still extremely disgustingly happy. He's my other. If i was a man, that's probably who I would be. <br>
I have two new grand children, Lily and Julius. Lily is suspicious of everything and Julius is the happiest little guy ever.  <br>
I've returned to school to get my A.A. <br>
I only had five classes to complete... I graduate in two or the weeks.  :)<br>
Sierra is graduating high school too. She has grown so much. I'm super proud of her.  She has certainly become an amazing little lady. <br>
So that is where I'm going start my newest attempt at blog life... </p>
<p dir="ltr">I have so many things to talk to myself about... life... getting older... weight and body image... being in love... being a mom... being a step mom... loving your best friend.... </p>
Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-24395444760582100872013-05-15T15:48:00.001-04:002013-05-15T15:48:48.467-04:00It's sadIt's sad to read some of those older posts. Less than 6 months ago life threw me into chaos. <div>It's funny in a weird way though... It's shows how life can go from a comfortable place, to dark chaos and then come out the other side into a bright happy place. </div><br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRCPaJ8JHydBZpyRo6huFNkDSREa7TlKZjNnbcirirUd9u0oHPyo8orJgnlBBm7LYNQqoLA9SiXrW8zzGSDSvITRBYyMLiVvqL3rbjZMuWIRwAV91CJqBuGBnrwlLMkRZBxvgcuw/s640/blogger-image-1273070222.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRCPaJ8JHydBZpyRo6huFNkDSREa7TlKZjNnbcirirUd9u0oHPyo8orJgnlBBm7LYNQqoLA9SiXrW8zzGSDSvITRBYyMLiVvqL3rbjZMuWIRwAV91CJqBuGBnrwlLMkRZBxvgcuw/s640/blogger-image-1273070222.jpg"></a></div>Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-10016637617390226362013-04-10T08:00:00.001-04:002013-04-10T08:00:53.886-04:00AppreciateSometimes I think that I should delete all those unhappy posts...<br />
But then that would be like trying to deny that those feelings weren't real at the time. <br />
I don't feel like that anymore. And that is a great feeling. <br />
But I don't ever want to forget the way I was... So I can better appreciate the way I am now. Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-57164012081427133822013-03-15T07:37:00.001-04:002013-03-15T07:37:45.830-04:00Live Love LaughFalling asleep<br />
With love in your soul. <br />
Wake up singing<br />
A beautiful song. <br />
A smile on your face<br />
And laughter in your heart. <br />
Life is good<br />
when love is so effortless. <br />
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Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-66035453023973022072013-03-07T07:12:00.001-05:002013-03-07T07:12:28.202-05:00I'm ok... Yay!It's funny how when you least expect something... Something you weren't even really aware you were looking for... Finds you and changes your whole life. ❤Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-58785950687952797312013-02-26T20:33:00.001-05:002013-02-26T20:33:12.816-05:00Sigh.This life is a complicated mess. <br />
I still don't know what I'm doing<br />
Or where I'm going. <br />
How do I move on? <br />
Where do I go from here?<br />
When when when<br />
Will this get better? <br />
When will I feel better? <br />
Why is this happening? <br />
Why is he doing this to me? <br />
FUCK! <br />
This is me<br />
Alone and lonely. <br />
Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-42032970856948046802013-02-18T14:31:00.001-05:002013-02-18T14:31:28.443-05:00BlahI still have this overwhelming grief <br />
Inside my heart and soul<br />
Probably going to lose my job soon too<br />
I can't focus on anything but my pain<br />
All my decisions are wrong <br />
All of my choices are epic fails <br />
I don't want to be here<br />
Or anywhere <br />
This life is not mine Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-43730054534485625732013-02-18T00:48:00.001-05:002013-02-18T00:48:43.063-05:00Unloved and unwanted<br />
I feel like I don't belong anywhereMendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-780174330444577082013-02-17T16:12:00.001-05:002013-02-17T16:14:57.104-05:00I'm struggling todayToday has been a struggle for me. <br />
The thought of losing my husband has been unbearable. The rejection and pain is enormous. I don't know how to move on when I don't want to move on. I just want him to love me like he promised. I keep praying for death to take me. I can't stand the pain. I just want it to all be over. But I can't do it on my own. So ill just sit here and drink these beers. Hide myself under this alcohol. Wait until I pass out. And hope I don't wake up. Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-20292610002161315162013-02-16T17:42:00.001-05:002013-02-16T17:42:29.635-05:00LonelyI'm so lonely. <br />
I still cry everyday. <br />
I pray every night that this is all just a dream. <br />
I just want to be with you. <br />
You seem to be moving on. <br />
You seem to be doing ok. <br />
But I'm not. <br />
I'm definitely not. Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-16426869098442265462013-02-14T14:05:00.001-05:002013-02-17T16:16:47.585-05:00Happy Valentines's DayTo me. <br />
From me. <br />
I've been rejected. <br />
I have no one to love me. <br />
Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-8552677305390244342013-02-12T22:33:00.001-05:002013-02-12T22:33:53.124-05:00Longing for my loveThe best feeling in the world<br />
Is being in your lover's arms<br />
Safe and warm<br />
Protected from the world <br />
I miss that feeling<br />
Every night and every day<br />
That I'm not with you <br />
Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-79022346024043339112013-02-12T20:43:00.001-05:002013-02-12T20:57:52.919-05:00Missing the love of my life...The longer I'm away from you<br />
The more I miss you<br />
The sadder life becomes<br />
I just want to be home with you<br />
Safe in our bed<br />
Curled up in your arms<br />
Cuddling and cumfy <br />
I love you so muchMendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-26749967802232480492013-02-08T14:49:00.001-05:002013-02-08T14:49:35.144-05:00A new normalThe day starts <br />
Go through the motions<br />
Of being a human in life<br />
Get drunk<br />
Pass out <br />
Somehow I get from one point <br />
To another <br />
Never really knowing<br />
How I got there Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-25090440591141455212013-02-06T13:44:00.001-05:002013-02-06T13:44:00.476-05:00So the numbness begins...I feel empty. <br />
Numb. <br />
My only emotion is discontent. <br />
It's no longer day by day<br />
But hour by hour. <br />
The day moves so slowly. Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-39585704866790142022013-02-02T01:35:00.001-05:002013-02-02T01:35:20.306-05:00James David Bradley...You are my world. <br />
My everything. <br />
I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you. <br />
The thought of it is to unbearable. <br />
Please don't give up on us. <br />
I love you. I'm still IN love with you. <br />
I'm forever yours. I belong to you...<br />
Forever. <br />
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Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-21125791900045243012013-02-01T01:32:00.001-05:002013-02-01T01:32:36.457-05:00DerailedI feel like my life is one giant train wreck. <br />
Being played out in slow motion. <br />
And I have no control over any of it. <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjWeU3wqxiykPrLz8FWMurP5XrCW5havN5PgO2SD_5yUC9MNk6yYxZQLQKpA760AOr_kJ3dfDWkj2J0Y4-VhbmU4px5tcQSezzb70bBO9jGPxjsT9x4kIsLKnlZh7nQmbsSmI9dw/s640/blogger-image-140903759.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjWeU3wqxiykPrLz8FWMurP5XrCW5havN5PgO2SD_5yUC9MNk6yYxZQLQKpA760AOr_kJ3dfDWkj2J0Y4-VhbmU4px5tcQSezzb70bBO9jGPxjsT9x4kIsLKnlZh7nQmbsSmI9dw/s640/blogger-image-140903759.jpg" /></a></div>Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-3346862184190171872013-01-31T14:07:00.001-05:002013-01-31T14:07:53.731-05:00TerrifiedI'm terrified of a future without you. <br />
The road ahead seems so empty. <br />
I always dreamed we would grow old together.<br />
That no matter what obstacles we faced, we would come out stronger each time. <br />
That we would be that cute old couple, still so very much in love. <br />
Walking hand and hand as we strolled around the world at Epcot. <br />
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I need your sweet slumber. <br />
Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5529977.post-23083022699750533762013-01-30T19:31:00.001-05:002013-01-30T21:10:04.525-05:00I guessI guess I will just sit here... Drink and cry... until I fall asleep... Alone. Mendihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15467591615720577121noreply@blogger.com0