Friday, April 24, 2015

Two years can change your whole world

Well. Here I am. Still alive.
Two years ago, I was coming out of a 13 year marriage and embarking on a new life,a new relationship. 
Curtis and I are still together. Still extremely disgustingly happy. He's my other. If i was a man, that's probably who I would be.
I have two new grand children, Lily and Julius. Lily is suspicious of everything and Julius is the happiest little guy ever. 
I've returned to school to get my A.A.
I only had five classes to complete... I graduate in two or the weeks.  :)
Sierra is graduating high school too. She has grown so much. I'm super proud of her.  She has certainly become an amazing little lady.
So that is where I'm going start my newest attempt at blog life...

I have so many things to talk to myself about... life... getting older... weight and body image... being in love... being a mom... being a step mom... loving your best friend....

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

It's sad

It's sad to read some of those older posts. Less than 6 months ago life threw me into chaos. 
It's funny in a weird way though... It's shows how life can go from a comfortable place, to dark chaos and then come out the other side into a bright happy place. 

Wednesday, April 10, 2013


Sometimes I think that I should delete all those unhappy posts...
But then that would be like trying to deny that those feelings weren't real at the time.
I don't feel like that anymore. And that is a great feeling.
But I don't ever want to forget the way I was... So I can better appreciate the way I am now.

Friday, March 15, 2013

Live Love Laugh

Falling asleep
With love in your soul.
Wake up singing
A beautiful song.
A smile on your face
And laughter in your heart.
Life is good
when love is so effortless.

Thursday, March 07, 2013

I'm ok... Yay!

It's funny how when you least expect something... Something you weren't even really aware you were looking for... Finds you and changes your whole life. ❤

Tuesday, February 26, 2013


This life is a complicated mess.
I still don't know what I'm doing
Or where I'm going.
How do I move on?
Where do I go from here?
When when when
Will this get better?
When will I feel better?
Why is this happening?
Why is he doing this to me?
This is me
Alone and lonely.

Monday, February 18, 2013


I still have this overwhelming grief
Inside my heart and soul
Probably going to lose my job soon too
I can't focus on anything but my pain
All my decisions are wrong
All of my choices are epic fails
I don't want to be here
Or anywhere
This life is not mine
Unloved and unwanted
I feel like I don't belong anywhere